I wrote all 3 of these on the same day. So makes since to put them on the same post.
"Faith"
I sit and wait,
For this is my fate;
The time will come,
When God sits on his throne.
He’s calling for me,
I’ll soon be free;
I hear the calling,
While Im falling.
I hit the floor,
I knock on his door;
He lets me in,
I start to grin.
Face to face,
This is his place;
He gives me a hug, and I can feel,
That he is certainly real.

"Dreaming"
You pull me in,
But I want out;
You think you win,
As I start to pout.
You hit me,
And I don’t know why;
It stings like a bee,
So I start to cry.
As it begins to heal,
You go away;
I take a kneel,
And start to pray.
I ask for help,
As I feel the pain;
I start to yelp,
For this is insane.
Now that Im alone,
I start to gleam;
Then I hear the phone,
Cause this was all a dream.

"A Day in a life as Gigi"
While in my bed,
I rest my head,
This is my nest,
Where I like to rest.
The alarm clock rings,
Nickelback sings,
I like the song,
So I sing along.
I look at the clock,
Im in complete shock,
Im almost late,
There’s no time to wait.
I jump up and down,
I start to frown,
I look in the mirror,
At my worst fear.
I am so quick,
While Im still slick,
I didn’t make noise,
And didn’t wake the boys.
I run to the bus,
And try not to cuss,
Im not to late,
So I sit and wait.
I ride to school,
I look like a fool,
We start to sing,
Some stupid thing.
I start to slump,
Then we hit a bump,
I fall out of my seat,
And look like a geek.
I start to think,
Maybe I need a shrink,
But for this time,
I’ll just rhyme.
School is now in session,
It’s time for a lesson,
We had a test,
I tried my best.
It’s time to go home,
And sit all alone,
I end my day,
Gigi’s way.

To bring back memories, Im going to go through all my poems that I have written in the past couple of months. Im going to go in chronology order from when I wrote them. This is the first one, I wrote this the night I found out my parents were smoking weed again.

"Broken"
Even though you knew how I felt,
You had to turn your backs on me.
You thought that I wouldn’t see,
But its not like Im blind.

You just don’t understand,
That I do know what’s right.
If there was something that hurt you,
I wouldn’t do it, I would have that courtesy.

Walking out, and seeing the smoke,
I just couldn’t think.
How could you do this to me?
This really hurts inside.

Its burning from the inside out,
While for you, its enjoyment.
You quit for a while,
I was proud and I bragged.

Now I get to go to school,
And tell everyone what you do.
You just crushed our love,
Its gone, and will never come back.

Its like death,
Once their gone,
Their gone,
You’ve missed your chance.

Well for you,
You still had that chance.
You blew it,
Once you rolled it up.

I was mad at first,
Then really upset,
Now I’ve calmed down,
Since my friends comforted me.

See they have become my true love,
Not you, not him.
Your both gone from my insides,
And will never return.

Once Im 18, I will be out for good,
And you’ll wish you could,
Have gone back in time,
And changed your mind.

All it took was that split second,
It took for you to light it up.
You had the choice,
But you made a mistake.

You might have your weed,
But your little seed,
Has now grown up,
And left you behind.

You don’t need to wish me luck,
Cause I know what Im to be.
I will succeed in breaking the silence,
I will stop the chain of all the violence.

I’ll start with the habits,
Then I will have the fortune,
I’ll have my family,
And we’ll live happily ever after.

I don’t need you,
You were just in my way.
You were holding me back,
From showing my potential.

Im on the loose,
Im on a roll,
But soon there will be that day,
When we all go away.

We’ll never know why you made this choice,
Cause Im not willing to forgive.
I’ve done that too many times,
And its time to move on.

I’ve waited far behind,
I should have just kept going.
Now that your gone,
I will soon leave too.

Once I do,
We will meet again,
But not as family,
But as friends.

God has granted you that one opportunity,
To make it right,
Will I accept,
Or throw you out just one more time?

Ok, to help lighten the confusion in my life. This is the blog. Um, I have made up with all my family, everything is going great. My parents are still smoking, but a wise person (my english teacher) told me this "If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, then change the way you think of it." Well, he didn't tell me, but he has it on his classroom wall. So I just don't think about it. I don't really talk or visit with my family, but I do when it comes down to it. I have already gotten my tattoo for those that are telling me about Leviticus 19:28. I would not like to go into detail on the way I think about it, or why I did it. I will say, that I still like it, and Im not going to regret it. I have lost a total of 57 lbs now. December wasn't a good month for me. The first 2 weeks I had Larengitus. Right after I started to recover from that. I had a head injury in my cooking class. I knocked my head on the freezer, blacked out for 2 secs. Then later on that night, I started to vomit excessively. Everyone thought I had brain damage or a concussion. Turns out, I had multiple gallstones. Weird, so on December 21st, I had major surgery. Returned home on the 23rd, and was barely walking come Christmas day. But I still spent it with Family. My favorite gifts were 3 cross necklaces, a wish pearl one, a diamond 14 karat one, and one that is a family heirloin. I also got an ipod nano for all my music. Which, I have 309 songs right now, all Christian Music. Im doing really good in school at the moment. I had final exams today. I have 5 As and a B, but if I passed the exam, then that B might become an A. Im trying to find a puppy at the moment. I have 5 dogs already, but I love dogs so much. So Im looking to get pup #6. What else is there to catch up on. Im now a size 8-9 in the waist, and in August I was a 16. So that shows a lot. Today I was repremended on a good job from people from Washington. They came to visit the school, and my cooking teacher asked me to make my famous cheese cake. So I did. They ate it up, and really enjoyed it. Oh, the recovery from surgery is great. It is 3 weeks today. The scars are starting to fade, and Im walking just fine. I am walking 5.4 miles a day. I amped up my excercise walk. Oh, back in November, I went to my first concert. It was a christian concert. I saw the bands Disciple, KJ-52, and my fav Kutless. I got great pictures, and I received Kutless' autograph. I will put some new pics in my gallery. Just for the fun of it. Im gonna post my grades on here.
1st period- Algebra II honors- 100A
2nd period- American History honors- 95A
3rd period- Biology I honors- 85B (maybe soon to be an A)
4th period- Culinary Operations 2- 100A
5th period- English II honors- 92A
6th period- Espanol I- 95A

I don't think there is anything else to say. So Im gonna leave it at that. I think that catches up for the months of November, December, and the beginning of January. Oh, this past weekend the nurse at my schools son was murdered. I heard they found the murderer, but I don't know it all yet. Let me just say RIP John Parker age 26. May God Bless You and Your family at this time. Special prayers for Vicky Parker (mom), John Parker (dad), Laura Parker (sister), Jesse Parker (brother), and his 8 year old daughter. Sad sad story.

Ok, yesterday was the big day for me. I went to the Smiths, and it went well, I mean it was really hard. But I did it, and made it through. I feel alot better too. I don't feel depressed. I also went and got those glamour shots... I so did not like doing that. Oh, and then I went to the tattoo parlor, and gave him my design. He is going to do it sunday morning, but it is going to cost 200-250. He isn't sure yet. He has to resize it first. It is also going to take him 5 hours to do... I can't wait... WHOO HOO. Other than that, I don't know. I haven't gone to the jail to see my uncle. I might wait and do that next weekend. But I really can't wait til I get my tattoo... my second one that is. Anyway, thats it for me today... I have to go work and make some money to help pay for this, 12 Stones rocks....

Ok, this morning on the bus I made a big commentment. I decided that I want to be 100% with God. So I need to make some changes, one being making up with my family... better yet, just forgiving them. SO I started with Rose, and it went smoothly. Tomorrow morning Im going to my grandparents house, we will see how that goes. Then Saturday I plan on going to the jail and talking to my uncle... way back story. Anyway, the best part out of this weekend is going to be Sunday... I can't wait. Im going to get my second tattoo. This one is another Christian one. I put a picture of it in my gallery... take a look. Its awesome. Im going to put it on my lower back. Its going to hurt really bad compared to my other tattoo. But Im doing this for the right reason, and Im willing to sacrifice the pain. Mind over Matter. Also, tomorrow I am going to get those Glamore Shots with my mom... I made up with my parents. Reluctantly, but I did. I feel so much better now that I am doing this. I also plan to get rebaptisted. But I will have to wait atleast 2 weeks from Sunday... for my tattoo.