This poem is one of my stronger poems. It is my whole past into a single poem. Enjoy!
"Terror From The Past"
Back when I was 10, I was so confused.
For I was sexually abused.
It was my uncle, and it went on for a year.
I would never shed a tear.
I held it all in, til I felt I could let it out.
I didn’t want people to see me pout.
It stayed bundled up inside,
And I tried to hide.
I tried to go to an imaginary place,
Hours on end, I would try to erase.
Everything that has happened to me,
But that never set me free.
I can’t let go, for this is the key,
To knowing me.
I tried to change, look the other way,
That didn’t work, for I went astray.
I began to dress like a guy,
I just wanted to die.
I wanted to be a dude,
But I was ridiculed and people were just rude.
They would call me gay,
But I just knelt down and started to pray.
2003 was a big year for me,
I continued to stay on my knee.
My parents were busted for growing weed,
I just wanted to cut myself and bleed.
It was on the front page the next day,
Nothing was okay.
The school saw my dad on the front page,
This began my rage.
I allowed myself to sink to their level,
I was being taken over by the devil.
I started to smoke,
But then I had a big choke.
This made me see the light,
I saw what I was doing wasn’t right.
I got in with the wrong crowd,
And I wasn’t proud.
Later in the year, I got a call,
The news was shocking, and I started to bawl.
A really close friend had just committed suicide,
Denied, Denied, Denied.
This isn’t true, he can’t be gone,
I cried til dawn.
This was never suspected,
And it was so unexpected.
He was only 16 yrs old,
From this point on, everything began to unfold.
My anger grew,
I started to be untrue.
Untrue to the ones I loved,
I shoved and Shoved,
I wanted to be alone,
I wanted to be in my own zone.
I was disruptive in school,
I began to be so cruel.
I got to the worst stage of them all,
I began to fall.
I jumped in the pool,
I was such a fool.
I sunk below,
I was like whoa.
I held myself down,
I tried to drown.
I began to fade,
But God came to my aide.
He said it wasn’t my time,
So I began to climb.
I arose out of the water,
I was trying to commit man slaughter.
I thought of Michael, and what he caused,
So I paused.
Yes, I want to end my pain,
But I want to refrain,
From harming those who care.
So this was when I made my prayer.
I let go of my life,
I pulled out the knife.
Removed it from my heart,
I wanted to be smart.
I wanted to change,
I didn’t want to be strange.
This was when my life took a big turn,
I was able to learn.
Learn from my wrong,
For this is where I belong.
In Gods arms I will be,
For with him, I am always free.
For a while it was all fine,
I was beginning to shine.
But then it all came back,
When my aunt started doing crack.
Then my parents were smoking weed,
This made me want to bleed.
I became so depressed,
Then I was blessed.
For God sent me an angel from above,
And he showed me his love.
He helped me pull through,
And I owe him a thank you.
For I could have tried again,
Right then I could have ended the pain.
But I wanted to prove that I could overcome,
Show everyone what I can become.
For life is a gift,
I will never drift.
It’s a miracle, Im still alive,
I was able to survive.
So don’t fall into the trap,
Of all of this crap.
Your past,
Will always last.
It makes you who you are,
Even if it leaves a scar.
I thank God for my past,
It wasn’t a blast.
But it contributed to me,
And now Im FREE!

Song
"Goodbye"
Entering the doors,
I start to grin.
For you have made me smile,
Just by looking at your face.

You’re the person that has picked me up,
You gave me advice like no other.
When I was down,
You were sure to be around.

Before I leave,
Im sure to say goodbye.
I never want to say those words.
But that day will soon come.
When that day does,
I will be down again.
I will start to frown,
As tears stream down my face.
For no other has been there like you.

You gave me strength,
You gave me a chance,
You listened to my problems,
You showed me,
You told me,
Just what to do.

Which is why,
When we say our goodbyes,
I will cry.
I will let it out,
There is no keeping it back.
Oh no, I can’t keep it in any longer.

So please don’t leave,
I don’t want to speak those words.
I don’t want to say Goodbye,
I want to say hello,
I want to see your face again.

Just to hear your voice turns my frown upside down,
Just to look at your smiling face,
You always know just what to do,
Just what to say....

Poems
"Inspiration"
I look to God,
When Life is odd.
But When Im blue,
I look to you!

You can be there for me,
When I need you to be.
When I need to talk,
You will take me out for a walk.

When needing help with God, I look to my preacher,
But when it goes personal, I look to you, my teacher.
When we are soon apart,
You will always be in my heart.

When needing help, I will sit and wait,
Because you always set me straight.
Now that I sit here, and make this realization,
I notice that you are my INSPIRATION!

"Meaning"
Many people have entered my life,
But only one pops into my mind.
That one, I hope never to leave behind.
That one is you, you are the meaning.

The meaning I want to live,
The meaning I go to school,
The meaning I want to succeed,
The meaning in all reality.

This life Im living was just a game,
Til you entered my heart.
You hit hard, and I can’t let go.
If you were to leave, there would be a hole.

A hole that could kill me,
A hole that could hold me back,
A hole that could destroy me in any second,
A hole that would never heal.

There could be others,
But it wouldn’t be the same.
None other has been there for me like you,
I just can’t explain, the words I want to say I can’t speak.

I can’t speak the truth anymore,
I can’t speak what is hidden inside.
I can’t speak anymore, for I don’t know how.
I can’t speak those words for I never have.

The words I want to say, are meant for only some.
Usually only family, and some occasional friends,
But why do I want to speak them to you?
Maybe because you continually help.

You help me when Im down,
You help me stand,
You help me speak, when I don’t know how.
You help me do what is needed to be done.

I could go on and on with what you do,
It would take hours on end,
I just want to say those words,
I just want to tell you my true feelings.

Those feelings I can’t hide anymore,
Those feelings I just need to show you,
Those feelings that are hidden inside,
Those feelings that I only feel for some.

These feelings are true,
They come from me,
They are from my heart,
I hope you won’t reject.

Won’t reject what Im going to say,
Won’t reject how I feel,
Won’t reject the truth living in me,
Won’t reject me for letting you know.

This is hard for me, and there is no other way,
For I still haven’t learned to speak,
So, to let you know, those three words I keep hidden inside,
For once I will not avoid them, for you need to know.

Need to know how I feel,
Need to know what I hide,
Need to know who I am,
Need to know why.

I’ve avoided it long enough,
So here I go,
Just let me say what needs to be said,
I need to say I Love You!

I Love you like a dad,
I love you like a mom,
I love you like God,
I love you for being you.

*This poem comes straight from my heart. It was written for my inspiration, my role model, the guy I look to as a father figure. That person is Chef Tyson. Chef Tyson has been there for me the past two years. Anytime there is problems going on at home, he’s the one I go to. Im not good with speaking, so this is why I wrote him this poem. I’ve never been good with words, and saying I Love You, is really big for me. Love means a lot to me, I don’t even hardly say those words to my parents. So when it comes to saying those words, I really mean them. I don’t love many people, so when I wrote this for Chef, I was being sincere. I really do Love Him! I look at him as a father figure, because my home life hasn’t been that great growing up, and he was always the one to help me out. So, this was written to him to say Thanks! Thanks for everything,
-Ginger Smith

"I Love You"
God gave you a mom,
Which ironically we have the same.
You’re my big bro,
And Im your little sis.

We’ve grown up together,
You watched me grow.
I’ve learned from your mistakes,
And I’ve learned from your good.

I might have been hurt,
But that wasn’t your fault.
Don’t blame yourself for what happened to me,
You couldn’t have made that change.

God let that happen,
But he had a purpose.
Because it has let me see the light,
I see what is right.

I see that you are my big bro,
You are the one to call,
When Im in need.

I look up to you,
Because its what I like to do.
So let me say thanks.

Thanks for being there for me,
Thanks for loving me,
Thanks for doing what you do.
Let me say, I love you!

"Comfort Zone"
Music begins to fade,
As I walk off the yellow orange bus.
Its 7:15, and it’s a cold early morning,
The breeze and smell surrounds me.
For I feel at ease,
As I enter this place,
I feel safe,
Enjoyment surrounds me,
And I think Im home.
The daily routine,
Its become natural to me.
Locker 773,
Then off to math.
The hours fly by,
Until I enter the one needed class.
The class that makes me feel at home.
I laugh, and cook til my fingers freeze,
For it’s a cold winter day.
I feel love all around,
Love I don’t feel at home.
The people that I face everyday,
They’re there for me,
They care for me.
The day comes to an end,
I walk back onto the yellow orange bus,
The music gradually gets louder.
I fall into a deep sleep,
Thinking of what tomorrow brings.

"School"
I Wake up early,
Just to enter this territory.
It has become my life,
And I never want to leave it.
Whether in pain,
Or just sick to my stomach.
I leave home,
Just to come to school.
I can be myself,
Learn, and be taught.
I can be comfortable,
And have a good time.
I laugh all day,
Sleep all night,
Wake up again,
Just to enter school.
When weekends come,
Im always down.
Two days of nothing to do,
Stuck at home to be bored.
I make it through,
And am rewarded,
I get five days of fun.
Five days at school.
Then they have these breaks,
Like Thanksgiving, and Christmas.
Summer, and then Spring break.
And all the little holidays in between.
June and July,
Please go away.
Two months of pain,
Two months to wash away.
November and December,
Are just the same.
For we have Thanksgiving,
And then Christmas.
Summer comes along,
And I cry my eyes out.
I have to leave for those dreaded months.
Not to return til August.
Its now August,
Im getting butterflies in my stomach.
I jump for joy as day 1 approaches.
I got my schedule just the other day.
I couldn't fall asleep on the last night of Summer.
But I caught a few hours of sleep.
Then the alarm clock went off,
As I headed off to enjoy another year of School.

"Conscious"
You knock and knock,
As I answer the door,
I stop and think,
What’s this for?
While you live in me,
You leave me alone,
Then there’s that time,
When you help me change my mind.
You know what’s right,
When I know what’s wrong,
You are my thoughts,
While I am alone.
Your always near,
When I don’t want you here,
You help me choose,
What’s right to do.
Your inside of us all,
Whether we want you or not,
Your like a flea,
That won’t stop bugging me.

"Goldie"
Bundled up in an oh so cute ball,
Your not so small,
But I don’t care,
Because you are so very rare.
You’re my dog,
Your as big as a hog.
You have that way to put a smile on my face,
No dog can ever replace.
For you’re my Goldie Girl,
Your like a pearl,
So very rare,
With golden hair.
Them floppy ears,
You’ve been mine throughout the years.
You’re the type of hound,
That’s very round.
But you have a way,
That makes me want to play.
You bark and bark,
While its completely dark.
For you protect me at night,
Your such a fright.
You lay in my bed,
You don’t sleep in the shed.
You snore so loud,
But Im so proud,
To have a dog like you,
Since you grew,
You have always been my Goldie,
Even though you might be an oldie.

"James"
You are the man that should be in my life.
But you are soon to have that wife.
I always liked you from the start,
You will always be in my heart.
Rose was blind, but I can see,
Just how much you could mean to me.
I thought I would never hear from you,
Then you showed up, out of the blue.
You bright up my day,
In a special way.
The Music is great,
I just can’t wait;
For you to be on your way,
Back home to Stay.
*Written for James in Iraq*

"Math is the Path"
My plans in life involve music,
I try to play, but I get sick;
I can’t write this song, and its no fun,
For I forgot to add past one.
I thought I would remember 1+1=2,
I try to think, but don’t have a clue.
My career has gone down the drain,
Just because I stopped taking math, and it went out of my brain.
Well maybe I can make web sites,
Then I think this really bites.
I don’t know what all these dimensions are,
800*600 pixels, you may as well give me a bar.
Hit me in the head,
Make my face red.
Why did I quit?
Now Im throwing a fit.
Just because of Math,
I can’t follow my desired path.
Now I am on my knees,
All I can say is geeze.
I only needed two more years,
I am facing my worst fears.
I start to pout,
For I am the biggest drop-out!
*Written for a Math project in school*

"Randy"
I just entered a league to play pool,
I looked like such a fool,
I had no clue,
Didn’t know what to do,
But then out of the blue,
Out came you.
You taught me everything I needed to know,
All I could think was whoa,
Your like a pro.
You help others, just like me.
And you do it all for free,
So to give you my thanks,
I won’t get into the banks.
Instead I will write this silent plea,
That was written just by me.
You listen when Im in need,
When my parents started to smoke weed.
You gave advice,
Which was very nice.
When there is a pervert,
That keeps trying to flirt.
You’re the one I call,
Your like a big bro,
That scares off my worst foe.
You know just what to say,
And you make them go away.
May God Bless,
My friend Press.
*Written for my friend Randy, aka Press.*

"Tribute to Eddie Guerrero"
Since a young age,
I would watch you on stage.
In 2002, I watched you fight in Jacksonville,
Waking up today I got a chill.
For I saw your name,
Nothing will ever be the same.
I just met you earlier this year,
I remember a cheer,
It was “Eddie 619"
Back then everything was fine.
I was shocked when hearing the news,
This is a lot to lose.
We have all lost Latino Heat,
“Lie, steal, and Cheat.”
That keeps going through my mind,
You were one of a kind.
Everything is starting to unwind,
As I look at what you have left behind.
Your beautiful family, and all the fans,
We will all remember you as we wave our hands.
For we hold them up high,
And try to touch the sky.
Why did you have to die?
For we didn’t want to say Good-Bye.
*Written when I found out Eddie died*