Ok, yesterday was the big day for me. I went to the Smiths, and it went well, I mean it was really hard. But I did it, and made it through. I feel alot better too. I don't feel depressed. I also went and got those glamour shots... I so did not like doing that. Oh, and then I went to the tattoo parlor, and gave him my design. He is going to do it sunday morning, but it is going to cost 200-250. He isn't sure yet. He has to resize it first. It is also going to take him 5 hours to do... I can't wait... WHOO HOO. Other than that, I don't know. I haven't gone to the jail to see my uncle. I might wait and do that next weekend. But I really can't wait til I get my tattoo... my second one that is. Anyway, thats it for me today... I have to go work and make some money to help pay for this, 12 Stones rocks....

Ok, this morning on the bus I made a big commentment. I decided that I want to be 100% with God. So I need to make some changes, one being making up with my family... better yet, just forgiving them. SO I started with Rose, and it went smoothly. Tomorrow morning Im going to my grandparents house, we will see how that goes. Then Saturday I plan on going to the jail and talking to my uncle... way back story. Anyway, the best part out of this weekend is going to be Sunday... I can't wait. Im going to get my second tattoo. This one is another Christian one. I put a picture of it in my gallery... take a look. Its awesome. Im going to put it on my lower back. Its going to hurt really bad compared to my other tattoo. But Im doing this for the right reason, and Im willing to sacrifice the pain. Mind over Matter. Also, tomorrow I am going to get those Glamore Shots with my mom... I made up with my parents. Reluctantly, but I did. I feel so much better now that I am doing this. I also plan to get rebaptisted. But I will have to wait atleast 2 weeks from Sunday... for my tattoo.

Ok, today my mom came to school to drop off my medicine. She told me she had an appointment friday for the both of us. So I thought she was talking about counceling. I told her no! Then she comes home, and tells me that she wants to go get Glamore Shots together... but the thing is, Im still mad at her. I can't put on a fake smile just for a glamore shot. So... I told her I didn't want to go. But then Stephanie came in here and was all telling me just to go. Make her happy by going. But I don't think I should make her happy, I don't owe her... in my opinion, they still owe me. Am I right?

Man... I swear, everything was just starting to get better... and now this happens. I mean you got to be kidding me. I just got into another big argument with my parents. I don't get it, they seem to think that smoking pot is good. Its not, no matter what they say. They are trying to take away my laptop and everything that I enjoy because I have an attitude with them. I mean I shouldn't have to forgive them. That is my right, and this is how I feel... and I am going to continue to feel this way. They can take my life away, before I would forgive them. I mean, my mom straight out told me that she wishes she never had me... ARG, that really upset me. It hasn't even been a week, and they expect me to forgive them. "We made a mistake". How many times have I heard this, way to many times. Over the summer, we had a deal that I would lose weight, and they would quit smoking. So far I have lost 43 lbs, and they quit for about 2 months. Now they started up again, its not like Im going to gain all that weight back. Im going to continue to lose. So, not only did they break a promise. But they lied. I have fogiven them way to many times. And Im not going to this time.

Due to everything that has recently happened with my family and stuff, the halloween party has been cancelled. Also, last night my mom was on the phone with my grandparents... yuck! Anyway, she called to talk to Rose to see what was so important that she wanted to talk to me about. So Rose told her, and Rose wants to be friends. She was all like I miss being able to tell Ginger my problems, and her to tell me hers. I miss being able to say Hi in the hallways and her responding to me. We are cousins, we should be able to talk to each other, not be enemies. I started BUSTING OUT LAUGHING! So I have had a really good day today because of that. Also, when I was in 2nd period, Mrs.Middleton came up to me and was asking me about making a Sophomore Class website. I told her I would. So when I got home, I asked my mom if I could have a website that is payed for. She said yes, so this website for the sophomore class will have alot cooler features. Also it will be a domain address, not a subdomain.. YIPPEE! The address is www.RamsSophomores.com. Check it out, I am still working on it though.